No longer a Pop!

Wow! It has been a really long time since I have posted anything on here, but today I am feeling inspired. I just finished my second day on my new job and it is so funny to me how being a newbie feels. First of all, my days are soooo slow because I am just sitting with people with no access to email or internet and not really knowing what the hell anyone is talking about. I think this must be what it feels like to go to a Country where you don't speak the language. Everyone is so confident and seem to go through their jobs with such ease and I feel like the dork at the popular table at lunch. Everyone is really nice but you know you are getting judged as I always did to new people at my old job. In school, my friends and I had formed a group called The Pops which stood for Popular. Yes, that is how conceited I was back then. But shit, we were!! We ruled that damn school and every day was just a continuation of the previous day which was filled with good friends, fun and talking about the weekend. Now maybe this kept me from going to a really great college because my grades werent up to snuff and maybe I am a little on the dumb side for it because I never really cared about learning per say, but the point is- I had fun, I felt confident in who I was and I had power. Being a newbie strips you of all of those feelings. I am a complete outsider to these people and I feel like I have a big sign on my back that says "Kick Me!" I know that I am just being dramatic for the most part and in 2 months or so, I will feel completely differently but I think everyone can relate to how good it feels to know what you are doing every day at your job and being good at it. I do however find great pleasure in the fact that I am no longer working for the devil who stripped away at my soul every day and that I have a challange in front of me to learn a whole new industry that I have no knowledge of and GUESS WHAT?? I obviously STILL got the job! So even if I am no longer a pop, I still have the know how and will to present myself in a confident manner and land a better position than I had before. People skills can actually pay off....literally, and for that; I am damn proud to be a past Pop!